As if you are remaining

Nothing destroys a woman more than seeing her dreams fall away from her, and feeling that her heart is swinging inside her chest, and failing to hold on to the man she loves like a chemist failing to hold liquid mercury between his hands! But I was not before a woman whose simplest dreams are a man! My heart has never swung, swayed, or trembled like that. And I never tried to hold on to anyone else after losing the first and greatest love in every woman's life!