I loved and tomorrow

Publisher: Alrowaq for Publishing and Distribution Number of pages: 255 We always wait for someone... we think that by their coming all our pains will be erased... we imagine that with their brightness over our dark universes, confusion and bewilderment will dissipate and peace will flood us... we deceive ourselves, our greatest deception, when we whisper to ourselves during times of pain... that one day... and with someone... we will feel complete! But we forget that our flaw is self-inflicted... and that our deficiency is embedded in us like an operating system... and that the very person we saw as the savior and the way to liberation... perhaps is the one who will give us our greatest disappointment... and will gather all our gaps into one big gap... greater! And perhaps instead of flourishing beside them... we may wither... and withdraw... and fade away... and melt! We forget that we need to improve our companionship with ourselves and heal our souls' flaws... before we wait for others to descend... others will never be our paradise as long as we only seek to numb our pains through them... and in reality, that relationship is nothing but an unconscious distraction from meeting ourselves and facing the truth of our selves! Toxic relationships start here... when the relationship becomes merely an escape and flight... and nothing more... and the most frequent offenders of poor choices are those who eagerly wait and anticipate with excitement... faces become confused for them... and they project their emotional emptiness onto a passing face, seeing it differently from its truth... Those who think they are healing their thirst... by chasing illusions...! (Even when it comes to them... they find nothing)