Attention chaos, by Faisal Al-Shahrani

The signals keep rolling in his mind, this time with death as a choice of salvation, to go to death of his own free will, wearing a coat filled with stones and throwing himself into the river in the style of "Virginia Woolf," "Oh, but my reading experiences with her are bad... Damn the translation, it is the greatest betrayal of the text, and also what will men of my tribe say about me walking in the footsteps of a woman." He dismisses the idea from his mind and thinks about joining an opposition party, making it easier to be caught, and then he requests to be executed while reciting his eulogy poem in the style of "Lorca," murmuring: "I will not die a traitor to my homeland... it is my destiny." He awakens from the previous thoughts to the spark of another death, to shoot his small head and blow himself up following the approach of "Ernest Hemingway," but each time he discovers that he is still more attached to life. He searches for ways with less pain and more hope, thought about burying his books and making a grave for them engraved with the words of the greatest he wrote, but he is too weak to endure living in a funeral, and with his own hands, he could dig up the grave and bring its lines back to life. His swollen mind with ideas urges him to step boldly, inflating the project of extermination in his veins, whispering to him: "Neither Abu Hayyan Al-Tawhidi" nor "Ibrahim Shabbi," the forgotten in his fields, are braver than you. He relied on that whispering voice, gathered some of his books, and climbed the mountain, shouting at his companions: Today, our prey will be roasted from the "Wibar" with cultural fire. Number of pages: 71