I missed the prayer

The book "I Missed a Prayer" by Islam Gamal .. In childhood, we used to be commanded by those older than us to pray .. so we obeyed the command then went to pray .. and found that prayer was heavy .. so we left it. We hear a sheikh talking about prayer and its importance and the punishment for abandoning it, so we go to pray .. and find that prayer is heavy .. so we leave it, thinking that those who command us do not feel what we feel, thinking that those who preserve it have a divine gift that we do not have. We waited for that divine gift for a long time .. until we missed prayer after prayer because we did not solve the root problem .. which is why prayer seems heavy.