Full of emptiness

Reflections on recovery from addictions and compulsive behaviors We were simply escaping from ourselves. We use food, pornography, sex, relationships, shopping, and immersion with our phones as mood changers, as painkillers for a deep pain we may not be aware of. We fill a void inside us that was rooted early on, bandaging a trauma that created a crack in language that we could only heal by distracting ourselves with compulsive behavior. Addiction was our silent scream, our suppressed pain, and our stifled groan. And here is a roadmap to stop fleeing from ourselves!