Nervous conditions

I did not mourn the death of my brother. And I will not apologize for this harshness, as some might interpret it, or for my lack of feelings; because the truth is not at all like that. I carry feelings towards many things — at least these days — much more than I did in the past, when my brother passed away and I was a girl. There are reasons for this change, not related to age. Therefore, I will not apologize, but I will begin to recount the facts — as I remember them — which ended with my brother’s death, the events that put me in a position that allows me to write this explanation. Although it is difficult to separate the situation of my brother’s death from my life circumstances, my actual story is not about death, but about my and Lucia’s ability to escape and run away, about my mother and my uncle’s wife’s involvement, and their inability to escape the trap, and about Niyasha’s rebellion, a person with an honest personality, who suffers from loneliness. Niyasha, my cousin, whose rebellion was doomed to failure.