Experience in love

The madman has imposed his madness on me - and he is the focus of this novel - and perhaps for this reason, the novel came in this unfamiliar way to me. The chapters are mixed, they can be arranged as they happened, or read in ascending order like the descending sequence, and without any sequence. The main character disintegrates instead of growing. The element of suspense, or rather the thread that connects the reader to the work, does not lie in the development and branching of events, but in the search for the existence of an event to be the subject of writing, and at the same time, in the deepening of the state of madness. A complete contradiction between strict rationality and the absence and disappearance of logic from two starting points. Perhaps personally, I am not satisfied as a reader with some of this, but as a writer, I find myself forced to embody the character of the madman, if I do not already embody him, and I find myself compelled to defend this state.