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About the novel Publisher's description: We always wait for someone... we think that their coming will erase all our pains... we imagine that their shining over the darkness of our worlds will dispel confusion and bewilderment and fill us with peace... we deceive ourselves, our greatest deception, when we whisper to ourselves during times of pain... that one day... and with someone... we will feel complete! But we forget that our flaw is self-inflicted... and that our deficiency is embedded in us like an operating system... and that the very person we saw as the savior and the way to liberation... perhaps is the one who will give us our greatest disappointment... and will gather all our gaps into one big gap... greater! And perhaps instead of flourishing beside them... we may wither... and retreat... and fade away... and melt away! We forget that we need to improve our companionship with ourselves and heal our souls’ wounds... before we wait for the other to descend. The other will never be our paradise as long as we only seek to numb our pains through them... and that relationship, in truth, is nothing but an unconscious distraction from meeting the self and confronting the true nature of ourselves! Diseased relationships start here... when the relationship becomes merely an escape and flight... and nothing more... and the most frequent offenders in choosing wrong are those who eagerly wait and anticipate with excitement... faces become confusing to them... and they project their emotional emptiness onto a passing face, seeing it contrary to its reality... those who think they are healing their thirst by chasing illusions...! (Until they come to it... and find nothing) Quotes: "That the harmful does not change except when it hits rock bottom... when it tastes real losses that shake its world with a violent tremor enough to awaken it." "Don’t stay just because you fear the pain of separation; don’t linger because you are used to companionship; don’t wait just because you can’t bear loneliness; don’t distort your soul by staying in a relationship that hurts you." "Solitude is always better than a half-sharing, a half-relationship, and false proximity." Author: Emad Rashad Othman Language: Arabic Publication date: 2019 Book format: Paperback Publisher: Al Riwaq for Publishing and Distribution Number of pages: 255