The camel of God Ibrahim Al-Koni

The poor one! He wanted to help her with her calamity, so he committed sins against her. He responded to the ghost of the desert's advice regarding the headband, betraying the solemn promise made to her with the blood of the soul, not the blood of the body, to add to her calamity alongside the calamity. Why does he not now admit that what he did for her was not for her, but for himself? Why does he not acknowledge that he was practicing a shameful deception in everything he did to keep her, not out of fear for her from the guns of the devils, or the blades of knives, but because he cannot part from her? Because the lost homeland only became a recovered homeland with her presence, for she is the embodiment of the spirit of the homeland, as much as she is the embodiment of the affliction that befell the homeland. Does this not mean that he does not love the Prophet's camel as he should, but rather he loves himself in the Prophet's camel?