Nietzsche - Zarathustra Creativity between Freedom and the Unconscious

The more you identify with your subconscious, the more you are the creator of the world, and then you can say: "This is my self." If I say this is my light, that is true to a certain extent: it is in your brain, and you would not see that light if you were not aware of it; yet, you make a big mistake when you say that the light is nothing but what you produce, that would be a denial of the reality of the world. As much as you are aware of it, it is yours, but what makes you have an idea of what you call "light" or "sound" is not exactly yours; that is something from the external unknown great. So when Nietzsche says, "This is my idea, that abyss is mine, it only belongs to him as much as he has a word for it, as much as he makes a representation of it, but the thing itself does not belong to him. That is a fact, and you can never call it your own truth. You are a whole world of things, and they are all mixed in you, forming a terrible blend, a blindness; so you should be very happy when the subconscious chooses certain images and merges them outside your self. Now, when Nietzsche sees the authoritative side of things, and this side cannot be denied; he is entirely correct as much as there is misuse of authority. But if he sees it everywhere in the core of everything, if it infiltrates as the secret of life, even if he sees it as the will of existence and creation, then he makes a big mistake. Then he is blinded by his own obsession; because he is the person who possesses feelings of inferiority, on the one hand, and on the other hand, he has a huge authority complex, so what was Nietzsche, the man, in reality?