Where is the escape

If she were to draw a simple picture of her life, since she became aware of it, she would say it is a series of shocks. Each shock draws a different path for her and awakens in her existence meanings she was unaware of. She had to search for the next shock to find her way. She walked, looking around attentively for the simplest events, searching for signs of shock within them.. and wondered: Is this a seed for a storm that will shake the pillars of her monotonous life? And every time she felt that a shock was coming, she clung to it and said, Here it is! But she quickly turned away from it when she found it barren of motives for change. Like a fisherman who catches fish and then throws them into the sea, waiting for a bigger fish. Until one day she stood and said: This is my shock, this is the biggest!