I loved and tomorrow - Othman Rashad

We always wait for someone .. We think that by their coming all our pains will disappear .. We imagine that with their shining on our darkness, our worlds' darkness, confusion and doubt will dissipate and peace will flood us .. We deceive ourselves, our greatest deception, when we whisper to ourselves during times of pain .. that one day .. and next to someone .. we will feel complete! But we forget that our defect is self-inflicted .. and that our deficiency is fixed in us like an operating system .. and that the very person we saw as the savior and the way to liberation .. perhaps is the one who will give us our greatest disappointment .. and gather all our gaps into one gap .. greater! And perhaps instead of flourishing beside them .. we may wither .. and retreat .. and fade .. and melt!